As I’m writing this, I am literally on hold with an insurance company representative. I’ve got my phone propped in front of my computer on speakerphone. Terrible muzak is playing. I’m waiting for the representative to get back from talking to my breast surgeon’s office. This is my fourth phone call of the day. I’ve already made two other calls to the hospital that my breast surgeon bills through and one to the breast surgeon’s office. I’ve been on the phone for an hour and a half and counting. I’ve talked to many very nice, very unhelpful women. It’s always women–at the hospital, at the doctors’ offices, at the insurance company–why is that?
All this, because my insurance company is refusing to pay my breast surgeon for performing my prophylactic mastectomy in August. They’ve paid everyone else, but are refusing to pay him. I keep getting increasingly urgent bills for nearly $7,000 in the mail. This, on top of the bills that are legitimate that I am already paying. Now, the hospital billing department is threatening to send the bill to collections. The sympathetic finance woman in my doctor’s office assures me that the hospital billing department means business. She herself had them send a bill for $7 to collections once and dent her credit score.
Every time I get this bill, I make lots of phone calls to try to get it paid. It’s Groundhog Day: BRCA+ Edition. I call my insurance company and patiently ask what’s going on. Each time the representative tells me that the procedure should’ve been preauthorized. Each time I tell them that it was preauthorized. Each time they check their database and confirm that it really was preauthorized. Each time the representative expresses surprise that insurance is denying coverage, including exclamations like “this is crazy!”and “I don’t understand why this isn’t being covered!” These women are really nice, despite working for a Kafkaesque capitalist machine that’s trying to prevent me from ever having a life without medical debt. They make empathetic clucking noises. They assure me that they will get the problem fixed. They never do.
Yes, I agree, this is crazy. This is absurd, insane, illogical, ridiculous, bonkers, and many other less polite words. I don’t know how many hours I’ve wasted on this nonsense. I’m lucky that I have a flexible work schedule. I’m home right now, recovering from yet another surgery, so I can sit here for hours listening to muzak, trying to be polite to this representative who is jut a lowly cog in the great labyrinthine horror that is Anthem BCBS. The last time this happened I wasn’t so lucky. I was working full time and not really available during business hours, which made it even more difficult and frustrating to waste half a day on the phone trying to fix an absurd situation.
Sometimes I think I should’ve named this blog BRCAnomics. I didn’t know two years ago that I would spend so much time here chronicling the many financial difficulties of being high risk. I didn’t think I’d be caught in this mess. But the economic toll of being BRCA+ takes up an inordinate amount of my emotional energy and brain space. Again and again, I think to myself that it shouldn’t be this way: the American insurance industry is deeply unjust. Again and again, I wish I could afford to take an actual vacation.
In many ways, I’m fortunate: I have “good” insurance (is there such a thing in the United States?); I have a job that I love; I have friends and family who I can borrow money from or who flat out sent me cash to help with my surgery expenses; I’m well educated and have been able to bring myself up to speed on medical literacy; I have the aforesaid flexible schedule. Yet even with all this privilege working to my advantage, I can only describe my BRCA+ experiences as a colossal financial clusterfuck.
And, unexpectedly, it’s not just the prophylactic mastectomy that’s giving me issues. Even with my many resources, this BRCA mutation has been an economic albatross since I first sought out genetic testing. I cannot imagine what’s it’s like to live with high risk as a poor or working class woman without insurance. I don’t even want to think about how much worse this financial burden would be if I were faced with an actual cancer diagnosis.
I still can’t believe how little we talk about these financial issues in the BRCA+ community. That some people act like it’s impolite or inappropriate to talk about finances or to critique the insurance industry. That people think I’m too angry about it. Well, good news: I’m past frustration and fury. I’m exhausted.
The insurance representative just returned. She says that she has fifteen years of experience working in the insurance industry and nothing about this claim being rejected makes any sense to her. She’s going to try to fix it. I’m not too sanguine about the probability of her success. I’ll tell you one thing though: there is no way in hell I’m paying this bill.